MRHP:The College Years, I've Realized the craziest things....

So, It's second semester....with that a sense of new beginning, or new ending! However you want to look at it. With this comes the sense that my life, especially my spiritual life, should be moving. And moving would be forward, not backwards....
So I've come to some realizations:

1) I am MORE selfish than I EVER thought I was....

2)"God was speaking, but I was praying so loudly that I heard only the echoes of my own voice." (Walker)

3)The conviction starts deep....repentance even deeper.

4) and Lastly, people do the craziest stuff! (Have you read the news lately?)

Have you ever been sleeply wonderfully, having dreams you most likely will never remember when you wake up? Yeah? Well, I was having one of those nights, but when I woke up, my thought was, "I am SO selfish!" Why am I selfish? Because I realized that many things I do, it's all about me, even things that shouldn't be.

Some one told me a long time ago that sometimes we need to be quiet and listen. But inbetween me talking and others talking I forgot or maybe I didn't hear quite right. I feel like sometimes our prayers are...to put it bluntly selfish. It's all "listen to me, God!" and God is saying, listen to me, but inbetween our music, thoughts, and prayers to God we have stopped listening! What a crazy thought! (Didn't I tell you I realized some crazy stuff?!) Inbetween the "I want this, God." and the "absence of prayer and fellowship with the Father." we tend to forget or ignore that God spoke to people throughout history and still does today!

Can I sum up how I felt? The conviction starts deep....repentance even deeper.
That's how I felt and still feel. It seems to me, that all this stuff we learn from the pulpit and everything we gain on our own, is useless if we don't allow God to move in our lives. If we don't allow conviction to move us towards repentance. Any one can get convicted, but repentances goes beyond the mind.

All this has made me put my life in prespective...I've thought alot, cried alot, repented alot, been convicted....and well I've decided that I should let God speak. Maybe selfishness can be cut short by understanding that others want to talk to us, including God. Others want to spend time with us, including God.

To end...I need to let you know the last thing I've come to realize...people do the craziest stuff! I was reading the news and an article caught my eye about a theft, a person stole something dumb and small. I do not rememeber what it was. Butas I thought about it, Crazy stuck in my head. Try it! Go check out the news and see what crazy stuff happens.

One Word: CRAZIES!